you make me wanna :D

2009-09-10T09:01:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i just cannot understand why my father has to be such a nosy pok. Seriously, friends of mine, people who are none of his concern he'll try to impress by offering to send them home, trying to change their bad habits by preaching them on the way back to their place.

It just seem to my mum and sis that he is a hypocrite who treats outsider so much better than his own family. Need more examples?

Here you go.

He cannot even wait 5 mins for me after my performance, but he conveniently, told another person who was working at the place i perform that sure he can wait till he wash the cups and settle everything while he shoo me off to the car to wait for them. WHAT A HYPOCRITE.

There was once he strike lottery guess like 2k then he gave my 9 cousins each 50 bucks and did not breathe a word to me mum and sis only until my cousin text me and told me to thank my dad. WTF. He did not give us a CENT. Not only that the worst part was, under my sister's interrogation as to why he was biased, he finally said okay fine, he will give me and my sister each 20 bucks. WTF right got this kind of father who wants to act generous in front of people. Okay guess what, in the end, up till now, he haven't even give us a single cent ! Ha Ha.

Next buying of my laptop, he kept asking why the need to buy a mac, then my mum explained because i was tired of explaining to a family-deaf man, then my mum paid for my cash and carry mac while my dad agreed that he'll pay 2k for my mac. But in the end up till now, he hasn't even paid my mum. Then he flaunt his riches by telling his friends-who-wouldn't-come-to-his-help-when-needed how he became successful in his career and Blah Blah Blah. CrapZXSFFREFE.

I'm pissed. I'm seriously pissed of his bullshits and craps about knowing everything. Argh now he's bugging me to get a job that requires me to wash the toilet. Because he washed it when he was young too. How ~~~~

2009-07-07T10:54:00.000-07:00

What is death ?

What is life ?

Pondered about committing suicide ? What is death when you see people fighting with all their might trying to overcome death, and what is life when you feel like dying because you got too caught up with a fight with someone you love very much and the person tells you that this damage you've caused is permanent.

What is life when all you want to do is to make the special one feel that he is always alright with you, however end up you screw up and causing him to hurt and making yourself hurt more like a stab.

What is life when all you want to do is to convey how much you love him, but end up saying the wrong words and making it sound like, crap i don't give a damn about you.

Then again, what is death to the fans of MJ who are willing to die for him. What is life exactly ?

To tolerate ?

To vent it all out ?

To lose control ?

To be disciplined ?

To be cautiously looking for the words that steps on people's tail and ignore them ?

To find the one whom you love, yet unable to express feelings ?

To find the one who loves you, and end up you make him feel like crap hole everyday because a molehill has been formed to become a mountain ?

All i can say is, life, determined by yourself.

No longer am i going to try to determine others' one.

Or anybody gonna do to mine.

I'm very indecisive, but people who care will help.

I've hurt,

I've taken my family's no grudges bore for granted,

I've said things that ain't never supposed to be said from a partner.

I shouldn't be forgiven.

I should be with you when the whole world's against you.

I feel damn right sorry.

Even though i shouldn't but i really ask for your forgiveness.

Baby i'm sorry.The 100 won't be there any longer, and i know you won't show it.

I just hate the me now.

Craps.Sorry if the above doesn't make any sense at all..

2009-05-25T06:05:00.000-07:00

Maybe the other way back is better.

2009-05-23T09:53:00.000-07:00

Lol alrights,i know it's been a long while since i updated my blog.Well has been busy with a lot of things recently,ever since school started.And seriously,school days passes like swift wind.It's already been a month since it has started.And... well i guess I'm getting used to it already.

Man you know i seriously miss CCHMS.Even though i kept assuring myself last nov that nah i won't reminisce anything except for the friends from the school,yet it's like only been 6 months and i'm missing cch like crazy already.Miss the food,teacher,friends esp. ; (

Anyway, i'm lazy to actually type out what i had gone through this period when i haven't been blogging,so i'll start with yesterday.

Well...yesterday's supposed to be our sec month together.But probably we offended some cupid or something,we always always have communication problems during important dates.Communication problem=a nicer word for argument.Sigh then had a big fight with mum after that,but by then i was okay with beee already,she had insisted that i must have quarrelled with beee thus i vent my anger on her,which is so untrue,she fucking hit me darn hard cause i tried to twist the non-batt antique watch.It seems like she is the one with a problem instead lor.

So i was pissed i hit her back and we kinda started fighting.But in the end we stopped,i was pissed off so i shove the plate of pears into her bag. :X lol beee i never tell you this part.Heh heh. Obviously when she realized she was super angry la,i thought she might slap me or something,but she didn't.She just kick the wooden door. lol okay i know i abitttt bad but you see i was really pissed cause i dont quarrel very often with my mum,and secondly,she hit me for a darn 20 over dollar usd antique watch so of course i angry right!!! Got mark leh !

Yepp..so..we haven't talk until now.

Argh damn comp! Lol it doesn't have enough space for me to save another photo and upload it here.Next time ba ! : D Take Care peopleee !!! Drink lotsa water !

2009-03-05T20:25:00.000-08:00

At least till now.

I don't live to please others.

So i will enjoy my overseas trip.

:D

2009-03-04T23:12:00.000-08:00

Okay trust me.
I seriously regret working.
I don't mind staying at home & let my parents nag about how lazy i am.

Really.

Lol i don't know where i got my will yesterday,skipped lunch to fill all 23 surveys.
There's so much i can say about work yesterday.
Stupid woman who diao-ed me.
Damn we are actually trying to help improve your library also okay.
Or maybe i do really look abit like debt collector ?

Zzz saturday got work too.
Wanted to say no,but like abit bad cause before we signed the contract i actually said i am fine with weekend morning shifts.
But now,i regret.
Can ? Lol.
Buttttt i decided to go on sat la cause anyway i kinda overcome the fear of being rejected,just smile & walk away & make them guilty !!!

Haha!!!! Joking la,but seriously,they keep apologising to me.
If that's the case,then why don't they just do the survey !!!
Weird leh !

Wlao my saturday mornings with mum is gone le,& then instead of weekend night shopping,i'm going to a wedding.Tsk... but never mind,my mum says the food at the wedding will be good,so... i guess it's not going to get too bad i hope ?

Anyways,i'm not sure why,but today,i kinda miss rainy days in cchms during pump when we actually wore ponchos nd waste all the self study time for our 'lunch'. ; )

SIGHS.Time flies.

2009-02-24T07:35:00.000-08:00

Seriously i really don't mind paying my mum to ask her to talk some sense into my dad.
I think he's seriously crazy.
I kinda regret letting him know about --
Cause he's like being crazy now.
Everyone i go out with,he claims is --
Shit la.
Even jia yu also became --
Omg i even have to take pictures with my friends to prove that i'm not with --
Totally invading my privacy.
A lil is alright.
But suspecting everyone i go out with is -- is like NUTS?

Seriously i didn't want to start a fight with him because of --
Cause it's really a small matter.
At least,it's not big.
And then he keeps suspecting this & that like a manic.
I went godma's house he say i go find --
I mentioned the time i leave my godma's house he went crazy.
Screaming that that wasn't the time i told him i was leaving.
Fuck.
Seriously i hope my work starts soon.
Cause i really think space will be a better remedy for the both of us now.

Cause i won't quarrel with him because of --
It's too trival a matter to quarrel with him because of that.
But now it's the matter of trust he has in me.
He thinks i'm brainless.
Flower nut case.

But seriously.
I'm not like that.

2009-02-19T19:49:00.000-08:00

Okay it's 19th already !

Anyway even though there were some arguments between my family yesterday,it kinda went out great in the end.We all had a long stroll along changi beach.It was rather creepy yet nice.
Maybe it's the tall & old trees that make the place creepy,but then,it was also the trees that make the place pretty.So...i guess it's up to one to decide if the place is nice.

Thank you people who came over on tues.I really appreciated it alot alot.
I felt you all de action speaks louder than words ! HEE : D
& lastly even though you may not see this,but thanks for the suprise celebration ! : D

Anyway my 17th yr of feb18th was great overall.Thank you all who wished me as well.
& Jia yu........I LUV YOUR PRESENT.i keep forgetting to tell you.Thanks for the effort spent on it ! Luv you V much,& hope to see you tomorrow for dry swim !

2009-02-16T21:47:00.000-08:00

Lol my maid's taking afternoon nap again.
But i'm glad she's doing that today.
Cause i will have space to practise.
Rather stress about tonight.
I hope it will be great. : )

2009-02-11T20:36:00.000-08:00

Let me hold you
For the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me
Now I can't feel anything

When I love you,
It's so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking,
It's the voice of someone else

Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

Oh what are we doing
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to save
It's like chasing the very last train when it's too late

Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell something that ain't real

Well the truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

But we're running through the fire
When there's nothing left to save
It's like chasing the very last train
When we both know it's too late (too late)

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I cant tell you something that ain't real

Well truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again

I have no idea why i'm so into this song.
Probably parts of my emotions are in the song.

Can't spell my mood futhur here.
Luckily i'm meeting angie later.
Make me peaceful abit.

2009-02-09T07:13:00.000-08:00

Hey peeps.

Thanks for your concerns & all.
I'm not crying alrdy.
I'm not dwelling as much as just now alrdy.

I will settle everything tomorrow.
So talk to you guys tomorrow.

Today,i just don't feel like answering or replying.
Hope i can smile & call each one of you who called me tdy & tell you good news.

2009-02-05T08:32:00.000-08:00

Argh damit.
I haven't been sick for 1 year le.
And i don't nd cannot believe that i will be so easily infected by my maid !!! WTH !@$$%^&*#$^
ARGH. FFFF.
I using tissues as if they are waters.
My nose is drooling instead of my mouth.

DAMNNN.& i dont feel like sleeping.

Okay nd although this whole week,i've only stayed at home for 1 day,but it seriously felt like forever.
Cause monday i went tp.
Tues went to singg.
Wed went to meet yu & qr
Thurs THE MOST BOREDOM DAY.OK WHATEVER MY EL SUCKS.BUT SERIOUSLY.TIME PASSES ESP SLOW AT NIGHT.I chatted the whole day on msn this noon,but night time is.

TERRIBLE.esp esp when someone spams.& everything lags.

Tmr !!!!! YAY I WILL BE GETTING MY ASS OUT OF HOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

p/s i do hope my nose won't run too quickly on streets tmr.

2009-02-02T09:28:00.000-08:00

Okay many things to update.

Cny was just last week,not sure of why,but this year's cny just seem a lil too peaceful,in the sense that there wasn't as much talking,laughing in people's houses.Except the fact that the 2 wu shi which came to my place on chu yi kinda broke my light.Lol the vibration of the drum was so terrible that somehow the bulb broke free from the metal casing 'piank' nd fell right on the floor.

Will upload the wu shi de video asap as soon as i figure how to transfer videos from a terrible phone model that starts with an O. -.-

2 pictures from Cny.The only 2 : (

Performed last minute on stage on sunday.

My gosh it was the first time i didn't have any practise before hand,nd sang infront of so many people.Heh heh luckily the crowd was kind,if not they might have throw their buffet food at me.
Cause..........i wore a huge blouse with shorts.lol i wasn't told that i will be performing on the CC stage. :/ i thought i was only going for rehearsal thus the dressing.But luckily Alicia (who is kinda ark's boss) trusted that i won't gao za her show till very bad ;D & also the guys on stage who tried to give me opportunities to talk to the crowd. Thank you V much. even though your might not even see this.Hahs.But still thanks !

Went tp with jy today,for appealing issues.Wish to get in tp as well !! The lecturers there is so nice.It's quite unlike n.Now i quite believe what yiting told me,the feeling is really different.Well a quote from a lecturer in tp,he told me he was Mr low.'History cannot be change,but your future is in your hands ! ' Nice one,i will think about it. : )

Tomorrow performance at ark,please come support : D 8 to around 1045.

Bring along passion card cause there's discount !

2009-01-24T05:11:00.000-08:00

Tsk. Strongly encouraged by my dad.

People interested to come ponggol to see wu long wu shi on CHU YI of Cny 5 pm please contact.
There'll be 2 coming my place this year. -.-
Diao-ed anyway it's always one only but this year the person said business not very good,so 2 for the price of 1 !!!! Woo -.-

Okay anyway,interested people contact me. :D
And my house is not big,so most probably have to stand.

We serve BEERS.And BEERS.And BEERS.
Okay fine,we have cranberry juice & because of ME,we serve GREEN TEA as well :DDDD

HAPPY EARLY NEW YR ANWWWWWW.

2009-01-14T09:14:00.000-08:00

Argh.

Tiredd.

Courses nd courses.
Schools nd schools.
Polys and jcs.
Arrivals nd departures.
Dream nd work.

Man! What a hectic week ;

2009-01-11T10:10:00.001-08:00

Argh. Fucking affected after watching changling.
Sigh.Hope walter was/is alive.

Hey it's 12 today.

2009-01-05T07:12:00.001-08:00

Support Support !

Arkcafe @ kallang .

www.theark.com.sg

Support Support !

My friend's blog shop , went to the webbie nd took a look , the clothes are pretty!
If interested in online shopping , you might consider her blogshop.

http://pokey-oats.livejournal.com/

2009-01-03T08:12:00.001-08:00

I wouldn't mind , would you , to help someone who deserves your help.
That someone doesn't have to pay me , nor return me any favour.
That someone deserves my help because she is in need.

So i helped.

But hey , it is incorrect to always seek people's help.
For your silly things , your unreasonable attitudes.
I hate to use the word , ingrate to describe people like that.

Helpers don't deserve you taking advantages of them.
Cause it is this kind of people , others starts thinking whether we should help one another.
Afraid of being taken advantage nd being crowned brainless/silly/stupid.
We start to step back.

I can't help but start to think , probably an environment without you is better.
Cause , you only need me when you are alone.
Cause , you will leave me alone if there's an emergency.
Cause , you seem to be making use of your friendships.

P/s when my friend asks me for a favour , i try before i say i can't.
Don't think saying no without trying saves you the hassle nd trouble.
Just to let you know your friends ain't brainless actually.

2008-12-05T08:42:00.000-08:00

Few days ago.I hope my eyes were playing tricks on me.

6H outing is fun! Meet up soon again gals! Dress code.Clarissa. Lol
Miss so many people.ESP.lao wong !!
Angie go next time please!!! Yuin hwei don't save anymore.Spend with me ! Our heart aches the same way when we spend :)
Bao hope the person really calls you back!!

Okay till next time.......!

2008-11-19T08:11:00.000-08:00

Simple & nice. Is not an easy route , way to make people believe that what you believe in , is & will work.

Anyway very addicited to this song after watching a movie recently.Hmm due to heavy cash outflow i've been rotting home nd has watched 4 movies in 2 days!

Today i watched secret again. Fifth time : )

okiee. lyric to this new song.

Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick,
And think of you
Caught up in circles confusion -
Is nothing new
Flashback - warm nights -
Almost left behind
Suitcases of memories,
Time after -

Sometimes you picture me -
I'm walking too far ahead
You're calling to me, I can't hear
What you've said -
Then you say - go slow -
I fall behind -
The second hand unwinds

Chorus:
If you're lost you can look - and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you - I'll be waiting
Time after time

After my picture fades and darkness has
Turned to gray
Watching through windows - you're wondering
If I'm OK
Secrets stolen from deep inside
The drum beats out of time -

Chorus:
If you're lost...

You said go slow -
I fall behind
The second hand unwinds -

Chorus:
If you're lost...
...Time after time
Time after time
Time after time
Time after time

2008-11-07T07:52:00.000-08:00

"This is a test to your determination." Quoted From Someone.

& obviously my determination didn't last more than 2 hours.=p

Anywayy went to one of my fav placee Vivo wanted to try something new to eat ....... but ..... well after walking for quitee some time , then we decided to settle dinner in a restaurant that is quite new , yet ... not new. Haha okay cut the crap it's called something Japanese town ? Or just some jap name town la.It's a combination of 3 rather famous restaurants one of which is ajisan.

So we decided to order something new , but i guess that place was quite crowded nd a lot of people like this idea of having 3 jap restaurants joined together so whatever we ordered was sold out. -.- So we settled with these few dishes. P/s Me & my mum only.

I didn't edit these photos.They just look fabulous naturally under hmm Japanese lights? Haha

And after that we entered P&B :D FAV.

That's about it for today.Cause most of the time was wasted on the stupid parking problems in vivo.The traffic congestion there is wow terrible , nd it's more terrible now with the completed KPE.I used to need around 45 mins by car to reach there.Now i only need 20.Seeee that's why people all flock there now!!! But stillll.KPE is an ingenious construction.Serious.It's so short cut.I don't know how to put in words but the first time when my mum drove me to sch by kpe i was shocked.Cause it only took her about 15 mins!!!!!!!! From ponggol to CCHMS. Believe it ?????? lol i can't last time either.

Okayyyy anywayyyyyyy.I've got a whole lot of photos i promised to send people online.But i'm so lazy even to upload it here.I'll do it ... ... ... ... ... ...

Next time. :D

& Keep going Bond! I'll never get enough of 007! BANGS! (pss.. please faint.)

2008-10-31T09:38:00.000-07:00

I almost forgotten my password. =/ WTNN why everything so crampped sia.Sorry ar i've got no time to go nd sort out i've procrastinated for abt an hour plus.Tsk bad influence again! Go study after you've read my blog ok.Go go.Even if you loathes me but..... It's for your OWN good!!!! ;D

I can't help not blogging about this cause i really think this video is very touching , probably only to me but anyhow i still highly recommend this song!!! / album.

http://www.imeem.com/mi2min/video/FNDWSjkt/zhou_jie_lun_dao_xiang_music_video/

Haha i may be outdated by now cause this song was i think before O's but initially when i first saw the vid i wasn't touched at all cause the quality sucked nd then i took no notice in it , but i like the rythm aiya i just like this whole song la! lol it's so nice.so so nice.heartwarming.

Home is the only acceptance to whatever you are.
That's why i luv crawling back home & complain cry tell stories to my fam.
Though sometimes we quarrel but i can never deny that i'm really grateful for their care nd concern i don't feel like saying love cause it sounds so........ unlike me! haha.anyway ok i gotta go back mugging.

3 more no ok 4 more left.i'm gng to pull through it!next week

same time i'll be partying woo! movies movies chalets chalets

tour tour awaits. lastlyyyyyy.

SHOPPINGGGGGGGG.MY SISTER GOT MY THAT WATCH

OMGGGG.HEEHEE. SHOW OFF SHOW OFF.OK IM ABIT

NUTS.

ANYWAY HAPPY HALLOWEEN & ENJOY THE SONG

ALRIGHTS! LUV YOUR FAMILY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THEY ARE

REALLY PEOPLE WHO'S GNA STAY WITH YOU

FOREVER!!!!!!!!!

对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨
跌倒了就不敢继续往前走
为什么人要这么的脆弱堕落
请你打开电视看看
多少人为生命在努力勇敢的走下去
我们是不是该知足
珍惜一切就算没有拥有
还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随着稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠回家吧
回到最初的美好
不要这么容易就想放弃就像我说的
追不到的梦想换个梦不就得了
为自己的人生鲜艳上色
先把爱涂上喜欢的颜色
笑一个吧功成名就不是目的
让自己快乐快乐这才叫做意义
童年的纸飞机现在终于飞回我手里
所谓的那快乐赤脚在田里追蜻蜓追到累了
偷摘水果被蜜蜂给叮到怕了
谁在偷笑呢
我靠着稻草人吹着风唱着歌睡着了
哦哦午后吉它在虫鸣中更清脆
哦哦阳光洒在路上就不怕心碎
珍惜一切就算没有拥有
还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随着稻香河流继续奔跑

anyway i haven't forgotten QF okay.waalao he's going china tmr,those china people ar,have yan fu lor.wth.. come sg maa!!!!!! GRRR.

2008-09-21T08:43:00.000-07:00

I'M FUCKING.FUCKING.FUCKING.PISSED OFF BY MY MUM.
WHY DO OTHER PEOPLE'S PARENT CARE SO MUCH ABOUT THEIR CHILD'S RESULT WHILE ALL YOU FUCKING EXPECT FROM ME IS TO BE UN-SELFISH.
FUCK OK.YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT MY RESULT IS YOUR FUCKING PROBLEM.I NEED TO CARE ABOUT IT MYSELF.DON'T INVITE DISTRACTION FOR ME.THEN SAY I'M SELFISH WHEN I REALLY WNA STUDY.MY RESULTS ARE TERRIBLE & I DONT TELL YOU.NON OF YOU ASKED.NON.THEN WHEN THE SCHOOL CALLS FOR MEET , YOU'LL SAY ABOUT HOW GREAT YOU FUCKING IS TO LET ME BE FREE.THEN.TELL ME THAT I DIDN'T PLAN MY TIME PROPERLY.FUCK OK.HOW CAN I BALANCE SO WELL.I DON'T WORK IN THE CIRCUS OK.I'M PROBABLY A MUCH WEAKER TIME MANAGER AS COMPARED TO OTHERS.I ADMIT.SO ? SO WHAT.IM NOT PERFECT.AND YOU ARE NOT TOO.YOUR TIME MANAGEMENT SUCKS TOO.YOU WERE NEVER EARLY TO MEET ME.MAKING ME WAIT FOR HOURS.YOU THINK YOU FUCKING HAVE GOOD TIME MANAGEMENT ? WOW.

DAMN.IM NOT GOING TO LET ANYONE CRUSH MY RESULT.

2008-09-19T08:46:00.000-07:00

Nice songs.
Bad results.
>3o
Mad-ified.
Anticipates tomorrow.
Katekyo Hitman reborn. =
Best Study Mate.

2008-09-13T10:12:00.000-07:00

Just came back from east shore H. Things ain't very good.But it's good , for now.Pray pray let my dad be well.

Super tired now.Shall update more about what happened tomorrow.Lazy to tell by phone msn etc.Anyway i just changed phone & i'm very not used to it too.

Okok anyway things ain't really as bad as what you think it is la , cause maybe i'm so tired now the tone i use is so urm emo ? Alrights if things were that bad i wouldn't be here blogging already.Ok i'm damn tired now.Bye lights.

2008-09-12T09:20:00.001-07:00

Been watching , hearing , thinking a lot about freaky stuffs. = /

Okay anyway prelims just passed.A few days more to Tues where yep in a motivating tone towards o's i'll say i'm going to learn from my mistakes this prelims & correct them!

A few pictures to share.

Exxxxclaimed. "Waalao why go take my stomach.I lost 17 kg liao leh.Take my face la! "

Most PictureS taken by the lil boy. : )

(He's not my cousin , nor is she.It's complicated to explain the ties here.lol cause of the names i call them. )

But anyways , this is my godma.Not my grandma!

&&& HAPPY BIRTHS TO TZX the nehnehpok.digggk.& fake santa. : )

Today is the musical date.Crap.I just got reminded again.=.=

2008-09-04T09:09:00.000-07:00

Aww i'm very addicted to Lucky.
Again!! Okay i was addicted to it when Jason mraz's cd came out.
Then i forgotten about the song because i don't DL songs.
= D
Then i heard it on the radio again & it's like wooooo i'm so in luv with the song again!!Haha

Went to stock up at giant THE HYPER MALL.Lol i'm not sure it's hype or hyper la.Whatever , bought lotsa junks! Then me nd my mum were betting on how much the total price will be.She cheated lor initially she said ~$120 then i say ~$180 so of course is i win right! Cause i said ~ $180!! Then she say im a 'peach face' what she actually means is bitch.Haha but for some reason her teeth got wind cannot pronounce clearly.Where got this kind of mother one lose already still want scold people peach face.Tsk tsk.

Meeting zixin tomorrow to study.I won't be late.Am going to wake up like damn early tomorrow.I think i'm going to have difficulties waking up next mon.Cause i sleep at 2 to 3 & on tues i slept at 4.( wawa-ing haha imma bad influence.) Then i'll wake up by 12 the next day.It's so upside down.Haha but one good thing , at least i don't need naps! So ok la balance balance.Haha!

The weekends are coming~Which means yep prelims gonna end soon! Man man it's less than 2 months to O's for combined sci peeps! Jia you okayyys!!! I hope nothing will cause an explosion unlike prelims practical for O's.If not i'll have to act as if i'm damn clam nd zai again.Lol i'm not a very good actress some more.Later the invigilator see le also laugh. = /

Okay now i'm going to do a lil bit of chem then sleep.Cause i'm waking up early tomorrow!!!!
Hope that i don't turn here nd turn there on the bed later.
Cause it's SO early. = (

2008-09-03T09:51:00.000-07:00

It's a early sleep tonight.
Dump all the sorrows nd shit-ness into the back of the brain.
When you wake up tomorrow.
A new day starts.

We know that's bullshit.
But , sleeping shortens my thinking for today.

So , so long 1253 & the today's tomorrow is going to be great.
Cause i say so.

2008-09-02T06:55:00.000-07:00

Study Date today was very fruitful. : )

Angie IS a maths pro.Don't act okay.Lol

I realised we got so much things to catch up on.

Urgh.Time time pass so fast.

Sat in the lib floor from like 3 plus to around 9.

Here's one of my fav chefs !!! JAMIE. x D

Woots highly RECOMMENDED~

How i miss it.

Argh we'll go back next year !!

2008-09-01T00:17:00.000-07:00

I don't wanna justify why i have to study.
Cause that will probably end up making me more demoralised.
Gotta be more motivated.
Plans are there , but action is needed to fulfill the tasks.

Please make me more motivated.
I need it.

Amaths Amaths Amaths.Hope i can learn a lot tomorrow.
Angie's a pro.She is. : )

Zixin , if you're reading this humans date soon to come.Cause i guess i'm still pretty relax at humans part that's why i'm still not falling asleep while hitting those books.

Lastly.My parents don't even interfere with what i wanna do.And they knew it since like when i was p6? So don't try thinking that a piece of shit mouth from you will affect us.
Thanks.

Study hard peeps! Don't be like people who only say but don't do!

2008-08-28T22:51:00.000-07:00

I WANA WATCH THIS.WHY DO WE DON'T HAVE THESE!WHY.WHY.WHY.

It's been quite long since i last watch a musical i think like going to 2 months le.Tsk
The english musicals' standards are normally higher than the chinese ones.I guess cause more often the chinese ones we have here in singapore are more locally produced nd they don't have a lot of capital unlike the more ang mo pai people.Eg , like the musical ' beauty world.' though it is locally produced , but i must say , the standard can be compared to those from uk or britain.

Argh i never want to watch a musical as bad as i want to watch for this.I love Jimmy's books.Even though i don't own them normally if i go to the lib i'll just pick them up nd read on buses nd trains.I really didn't know that there is a musical about his books going on in the world , i'm not sure if other than tw still have , but i guess so.Cause my mum say there is.

BUT WHY NEVER COME SINGAPORE!! WHY!!!!

And this time the tw one , QF is the one of the lead.Effffffffff.I wana fly there now.Okay skip prelims nd off i go now.

Ok bye bye people.See you in school after prelims.
Hahahahahaha.

2008-08-28T03:56:00.000-07:00

For every action , there is an equal but oppostie

reaction.

I'm currently very pissed.But this has nothing to do with what i'm going to say.

Ended my conversation on msn cause i was afraid that i might accidentally vent my anger on the person i'm talking to.I hate it i hate it.I damn hate it.When people ACCUSE me.Especially someone who know me VERY well.

Okay i've got somethings that i need to clear off my chest.
Asked " How reliable can the newspaper be ? "
My reply " To a very small.tiny.micro. extent."
"Oh why ? The newspaper SHOULD report facts shouldn't it ? "
My reply " NO.In fact it twists stories to attract readers.I'd experienced before."
"Please , share your experience."

Once there was this mother nd her daughter , the mum goes to work at around 1030 in the morning , while on that particular day , the daughter had supplementary lessons in school , thus the mother decided to drive the girl to school for her lessons at 11.

They travelled on a new honda accord that was manufactured barely 3 or 4 months , on their way to the girl's school , the girl smelt something burning.So she look at the rear mirror , nd saw fumes.They were behind the car.The girl thought that NOTHING could or should happened to the car , since it was rather new , so they continued driving.

Until they reached bedok reservoir road , whereby suddenly a blue proton , the driver in the car frantically draw down his window nd tried to attract our attention.I thought he was going to tell me something , so i drew my down too.

"Eh! Your car is on fire!!"

"HUH?HOW COME?"

"The engine below got fire!!! Stop your car now!!!"

The girl panicked.Although she had experienced car accident before , this was something she had never experienced.It was something that may endanger her life.

So they quickly got off the car.But i guess , sometimes , certain things are just fated.Her mother's phone had no more battery.Actually come to think of it , the mum was quite an idiot.Because i think there are few people who would bring an uncharged phone out.

Anyway so , they wanted to use the public phone at the canteen next to where they stopped their car.But suay suay the canteen is shut down , waiting to be demolished.So the nearest public phone they can get to now , is the mama shop at quite a distance away from the car.

The girl is late.She's not very far from her school.So thinking that the car might just be suffering from something minor , the mum , after calling her husband nd telling him what had happened , decided to cab the girl to school.A responsible mum isn't she ?

Ha but guess what , when the mother-daughter was in the cab , they heard the radio station reported.

"A deserted car has been noted at near bedok reservoir road , the car is on fire."

That's it.The mum thought okay nothing really big should really happen as well , the car is really new , the leather smell is still very strong.

So when she got back to her car , there were reporters , there was fire engine , can't quite remember if there was an ambulance.The responsible mum is labelled as a IRRESPONSIBLE driver to the car.

Because guess what.She told the news reporter what had happened.And then , the next day , something like.

"A RESPONSIBLE MOTHER.TO CHOOSE BETWEEN CAR OR DAUGHTER."

Stupid dumbbells , they said ,

"Don't worry , we'll help you in getting your insurance, just tell us what exactly happened."

But in the end , it was mainly because of their stupid title nd twisted story to attract readers did they not get their insurance.

So ever since , i've been very doubtful to what the newspaper writes.Not just local newspaper of course.The source is unreliable.So trust only what you see.And don't accuse because you don't really know what you think you know.

There are a lot more cases that are more than meets the eye.They are not as simple as what the news had reported them to be.

Think about it.How can a devastated family tell you the whole story of why a guy committed suicide.
Think about it.Why would someone go say something that will make people hate her in front of the reporter.

You have brains but so do others.Why would they slap words on their own faces.

Say they are merely doing their jobs.I know.But what they say , do have direct consequences that affects the victim.So probably be more responsible for your words , don't accuse , don't assume , don't lie FOR YOUR OWN SAKE.

2008-08-26T09:51:00.000-07:00

Good morn.

Currently it's about 1 already.I'm so sick so reading words nd memorising! And i haven't even started on physics.Woo i think i'm nuts.

Please please let SS nd physics be superrrrrr easy.Or easy also can. = )

2008-08-21T07:34:00.000-07:00

There are a few people who make me really very happy today , despite the shit that happened this morning.

My sis who was the first one i thought of to share the shit that happened with , thanks for opening up my mind a lil.

My pal who also quite suffered the same shit that i did & said encouraging words." Sigh why must ritaz be under renovation!!! ma-de man."

My dad ; all of a sudden while studying for el i had the craving for green tea so i called him nd ask him to buy a bottle for me.Then when he came back , he came back with a whole carton of green tea nd say , "bu yao he tai duo , he tai duo zhe zhong bu hao. " Heehee. I was really very pleased with him , cause well let's just say , i never thought my dad will be those kind of er hua bu shuo then do whatever things i tell him to one.Cause we always quarrel & blah blah blah.

Another pal ; Who say he'll love my song! YAY. haha ok im very happy with him because it's very uncommon for him to sing me any praises.So yea i was very happy.But i'm not happy with him when he say he is qf because he want to manipulate me.& say qf is gay.For that he sucks.lol

My mama ; as in my real mum not my godmother.Though she's in Thailand now enjoying herself but i really miss her.She cannot see this because she'll go damn disgusting once she sees this like she'll wrap herself around me nd yucks haha.There's more but i wanna keep it my secret haha!And i'm really glad for what she did for me yesterday. 2 more days till she's back!!!

I hope tomorrow will be a very happy day.

And i seriously hate it whenever i revise geog nd come across the page where it states " so it means while reading this paragraph , about 2 children is dead from starvation." I hate it.

2008-08-19T03:27:00.000-07:00

I got a long story to tell today.
But time is little.So i'll cut short.

Today i help peiying do her demo recording.
She told me the story behind the song because
i couldn't get the feeling she wanted.

The story goes like this.This 2 guy friends from OB(knew them since beginner.)
They were good friends all along i guess.
Then they quarrelled.Obviously because of something.
But she didn't tell me nd i guess she didn't want to.
So i decided not to probe.
So she told me sing this song like there was a friend whom you were rather close with
But had some conflicts nd you aint talking to now.
So i thought of you.
I hate you.
Now.
Then i thought.
I really like you as my friend previously.
But why are we where we are now.
Hah so memories came nd set in my mind.
I was able to deliver the song.
But to do that.
I thought of you.
I remembered our friendship.
I remembered when i did not hate you.
I remembered when you did not hate me.

The times we were friends.We tried nd we got in.We didn't fake.We didn't hate.
But people change.Time change.But i think our change makes people drop jaws.
Ok whatever it is now.I feel happy for L & J cause they are friends again.
I miss OB days with them!

Something else happened.That i would like to say.
But really geography's rushing me.

Maybe i'll say it some other time.

Just.

Treasure your life.Nobody knows if your body is okay if you don't say anything.Dont tired yourself out too often.Don't drink too much.Don't start smoke because you are curious.Don't do things you think your body can't take it because you don't want to disappoint people.
This is your life.LIVE YOUR LIFE.

But bear the consequences.

2008-08-16T03:52:00.000-07:00

I miss the past , when we visit KFC like twice a week.Where we gossip nd talk nd don't really give a damn about time.In a blink of time.

Prelims is in 5 days.

Fuck am i ready for it.An inspiring talk from Mr yazeed made me feel more moralised.Screw a maths who the hellS were so smart to go nd think so much to come out with double angles & stupppppid properties of circle.I wonder what is so interesting about circles that made the smart one want to study it.

Grr i think i kinda sprain my leg last night when i was sleeping.I had to limp to tuition nd despite saying how difficult it was for me to walk my heartless mum made me walk the whole tamp Ikea with her , nd she still play hide nd seek with me.As in she ran cause i couldn't nd went to hide.Damn childish la. Lol. Tsk small kids looking at that mad woman she also don't care.

Argh okay i HAVE to complete at least 1/2 syllabus for human geog tonight.Heh i slept after i came back from ikea , knocked out once i got home from 1.30 to 4.30++ i had my alarm snoozed for an hour.Heh heh.So i guess i'm gonna sleep at 4 today.

Haha sad think there's no web cam to entertain me tonight./

Aww think it's been like 2 or 3 weeks since i've been listening to this song almost thrice or more daily but i'm still not sick of it.It's soooooooooooooooo nice!! = D

2008-08-12T07:24:00.000-07:00

She pray earnestly that she'll pull through.Things gonna get smoother soon.
Bleakly without a word.

2008-08-08T23:32:00.000-07:00

Caught Money not enough 2 & Journey to the centre of the earth yesterday.Actually both films are not bad , just that some parts of mne2 a bit boring.And trust me , if you are going to watch mummy , skip it.Watch journey to the centre of the earth! It's a lot nicer than Mummy.

Had a lot of thoughts after watching mne2.Somehow parts of the show related to me.I didn't felt good.It was terrible.And i didn't wanted to speak.When all the 'potential' tears cannot become 'kinetic' all at a time because we have to go against our feelings.The feeling sucks even more.Because it will stay within a longer time.Ha if you don't understand me , it's my problem , cause i can't put those feelings into words.

So we chose not to talk.

Okay fuck these emo shits at least i haven't done anything very wrong YET.

& Happy Birthday Singapore.

As i loses my sense of belonging more nd more as i grow.I'd wonder why.

2008-08-06T03:41:00.000-07:00

When things happen at the moment you least expected , it will be one of the truest and most beautiful moment that will stay withing the memories.

ilove QF.Still... x D

And seriously whats wrong with chinese songs! We are chinese leh , why listen to chinese song is like a shameful thing! Damit i like english songs nd i like chinese songs also leh , why cannot! Then is learning to speak chinese also a very shameful thing?

I love chinese songs , i love soda green and they sing CHINESE songs!

WHY WHY WHY do people think listening to chinese songs is a shameful thing!!!!

2008-08-05T02:37:00.000-07:00

OKAY.
It's the 3rd day
&
.
.
.
i'm still having QF fever.

i loveeeeee him. LOL.

Pardon me if my words disgust you. : D

2008-08-03T07:49:00.000-07:00

Am still suffering from QF fever.Awwwww i miss yesterday so much!!!! : (

Damn please postpone the geog test tomorrow!

2008-08-02T09:16:00.000-07:00

Okay the below is going to be very er xin for people who knows me.Others who don't know me , this is my first time doing a post like this. * winks winks!!!

Currently very in love with a boy.And he's got a band.He's not very shuai.He's lame.He's funny.He's zi high.He's straight forward.He's humorous.He makes me laugh nd get so in love with him when he sings.He makes people happy.He makes my dad happy.He make me feel staring and not talking to him will not make me feel leng chang.He make me feel that being not as tall as zixin is something i should be happy for.He made me fall deeper for music.Okay shut your eyes.He make me want to marry him!!! HAHA! I'm serious!

He make me love soda green soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much more that i promise that i'll go every concert they will be holding in Singapore !!!

Although he don't belong to me alone , but i'm going to treat it like he's mine.Anyway our age gap isn't very large.Heh heh.Yay im despo! But only despo for this type of people ok! Haha anyway there's hardly anyone like him so i won't be despo other than for him !!

Dadadadanggggg.Here's my future husband's picture.!!

& yes your music touched me.Us./

2008-08-02T03:01:00.000-07:00

GRRR i'm pissed remorseful nd hungryyyyy

2008-08-02T02:17:00.001-07:00

Another case of 'if i lie we'll both be happier with each other' just occured again.................
Maybe i should have lied.Then , things will be more different.

2008-08-01T02:14:00.000-07:00

我只在wo zhi zai hu ni - sodagreen -

This is live.

I hope he sings this tomorrow.Heh heh , though it's an quite old song , but this definatitely is one of my fav oldies.Haha.

I'm going soda green concert tomorrow! And guess who i'm going with , My DAD!! Hope tomorrow won't be too awkward , hope he don't fall asleep , hope he don't snore.Haha! But heck la i go there zi high.Wooo SCREAMMMMS!!!

Luv luv luv luv luv x inifinity soda green.More about the concert tomorrow when i come back.Heh~!!

Those who don't like them don't critisize please , every piece of music is done with effort nd if you don't appreciate it just keep it to yourself..........................................................

( :

LuV~

2008-07-30T03:45:00.000-07:00

People get hurt when we are truthful ,
People get hurt when we lie.
People say they want the truth,
But deep down all they want to hear is lies.
So truth or lie.
Say you want the truth ,
But are you strong enough to accept the naked truth ?
So truth or lie.
When we are truthful you tell others we're mean,
When we lie , you tell others we are hypocrites,
So once again,
Truth or lie.
What kind of truth do you want.How many percent.

El oral was a disaster today , it's the worst oral exam i've ever did.Or said.Grr really don't know what was wrong with me , i startled a few times nd i even read the passage with like error.

It's a tragedy inside , it's butterfiles in a garden outside./

2008-07-26T23:20:00.000-07:00

"I need them in my life."

2008-07-26T09:35:00.000-07:00

THIS DAMN SONG ALMOST MADE ME WENT NUTS.

Really like this band a lot , they still got a lot of nice songs with brilliant lyrics that are real nd hmm say close to heart ? Haha but anyway enjoy.If you don't like it then we definitely got a different genre of music taste .

Caught X files at E hub an hour ago before this post.It's not really as nice as i thought it would be , rather disappointing , to cut short , the storyline for the movie is baddddddddddddddddddddd.The show is supposed to be more on the paranormal side , but the paranormal part is really minimal.Think they emphasize on emotions , relations nd "believe" too much.It's kind of like watching the series like that.

Watching a not so nice movie is bad enough already imagine the person beside you go kiao her leg onto the chair then her both FEET are facing you , waalao really felt like pinching her feet can.Lol , nd the worst thing is she was quite sicked , throughout the show she was coughing nd coughing nd coughing nd coughing nd sneezing nd sneezing nd sneezing.Zzz sick then don't watch ma , spread germs around , nd i just recovered from what my mum said as liu xing xin gan mao.!!

But i don't think i'll fall sick again so easily , i need my voice to be purrrrrrfect for orals , to pronounce words like orienTAtion , modifiCAtion etc. (;

Okayy let me end with a nice something now.

2008-07-20T08:47:00.000-07:00

Sickedddddd.Damit i kinda brought it to myself by skipping breakfast nd lunch nd survived on chocolates nd lays on sat.But nothing's really bad about it , to think that tomorrow's lesson is those okok one except for geog , grr damit why must there be geog on monday! Well tomorrow's my dad's birthday !! Racial harmony day !! Mom decided to give him a surprise by changing certain stuffs in his car.Quite excited to see what his reaction will be , but i aint going school tomorrow!!! The gain is i get to stay home nd finish whatever work i didn't complete this weekend cause the flu plus some aches really turned me into a worm lying on the sofa or sitting infront of the computer.Heh heh.And the loss is i don't get to see people wearing enthic costumes nd see my dad's reaction!!

Well well..okay even though i was sicked , i couldn't resist the temptation of the dark knight , so i caught it on Sat night.Woah the seats for the show was 3/4 booked when i wanted to book online in the afternoon so dad suggested that we go some where even more ulu pandan than balestial , so we went toa payoh eng wah , hmm we managed to get the last few rows cause the cinema is kinda small so the last few rows aren't really good seats cause they are very very far from the

screen.But it's definately better than front rows.Haha , anyway it was zomg nice! It's so nice i want to watch it again.Anyone want to watch??

2008-07-18T08:57:00.000-07:00

I'm so pissed off by the msges in my phone today, it commited suicide twice.

If we realised , friends , things are always not done because we often have excuses to why we did not and cannot complete the task.

Friends give nd take , because you rarely give that's why when you give , you feel like an angel.

/i had a very idiotic tiring irritated angered tio chua funny sad DAY.So fuck the other bad emotions OFF.

2008-07-12T13:22:00.000-07:00

Our memories

Well, they can be inviting

But some are altogether

Mighty frightening

As we die, both you and I

With my head in my hands

I sit and cry

Had a feeling i never did about 4CR yesterday after i saw a classmate's msn nick.Still remembering how i hated to face the fact that I've been admitted to a combined sci class , I really couldn't take it then , i remembered telling my parents that I'd rather get transferred to another school then going to a stream that is full of humanities.But i did nothing when i got my results for streaming , and here i am ending up in 4CR.

I used to hate CR a lot.Not because it is combined sci or it's the last few classes , but we did not bond at all.Guess if I'm not wrong , we separated into different groups of friends the first day we entered the class.We seldom chat with people from another clique etc well why not just say we stick closely to our own friends.Things were quite bad in 3CR , teachers didn't like teaching us , except for chua , higher mother tongue teacher screaming like don't know what over us , BUT , despite all the not very good terms with classmates , we managed to do a cross country shirt , i couldn't remember if we won anything but that day was fun , cause we were screaming nd cheering for our class 3CR.

Say , time files and here we are already at 12 July 2008.The year's coming to an end pretty soon nd then we'll go our separate ways.I guess i'll be missing CR , the jokes we make about our classmates....sheng feng....red cheeks....morning class....mtv....Pastiska( i don't know how that is spelt.)....Digged dig digging! And more.Aww it's laughter in class everyday.

So work hard CR! And then Mrs tan will probably be less paranoid about us.!

40 Days To Prelims!

2008-07-06T20:08:00.000-07:00

Don't hit me with coincidence.

Went to watch 2 movies yesterday , Wanted nd hancock.I like both shows!Except that i thought the storyline for wanted can be better , but i love the twist in the end.I love shows which have an unexpcected twist , nd both movies have it.Haha , but i prefer hancock to wanted.But anyways i should probably go out study with zixin today , do some test papers nd maybe read some geog.But instead i'm going to see 2 people who are going to nag at me.My tcm doctor nd my hairdresser.Cause i ought to visit my doc every week but i think it's been like 1 month since i last visited her. =/ Busy eh.So today finally got free day so i better make my way there.

Curse the integration test la!Tmd only a handfull of people pass nd very very likely , i'm not inside that handfull.And the funny thing is i can do the integration parts , but i cannot do the differentiation!SWEAR!!

Nobody is perfect in this world.If you are only going to see the flaws of others nd judge them with that , you are going to be miserable.If you hadn't realised , you take people around you for granted , make them do things the way you want it , like you're the boss of them.Some people do that because they still treat you as a friend , while others do that because they are afraid of YOU.Afraid of you yacking about what they wouldn't do for you because if you haven't realised you are a drone.And i believe that if that person just keeps quiet nd bear with your nonsense , you are so going to not feel paiseh nd use that person until he/she dries up.Then the person will start to stay away from you , because he/she knows that you only treat him/her as a free labour , someone who must do what you want them to.

Hey but please the world don't owe you anything okay.Neither do your friends nor family.

2008-07-03T07:09:00.000-07:00

Found this picture which i like it a lot , the kitten is soooo adorable.

"Most of the things worth doing had been declared impossible before they were done."So don't declare impossible before even trying out.,working hard for the possible..

Study hard peeps! Youth day's coming on Mon well don't enjoy it , study on that day.Counting 50 days to prelims!!

In the midst of studying , take a look at these videos taken by YITING. (She wanted her name to appear/credits.) Haha

Hope you like dogs, anyway the breed is west high land white terrier.Super cute ain't it!!!

On the planks beside the hut is where divine intervention you are./

2008-07-02T06:15:00.001-07:00

Was browsing through my email nd come across this one;

"Around the corner I have a friend,
In this great city
that has no end,
Yet the days go by
and weeks rush on,
And before I know it, a year is gone.
And I never see my old friends face.
For life is a swift and terrible race.
He knows I like him
just as well,
As in the days when I rang his bell.
And he rang mine if we were younger then,
And now we are busy, tired men.
Tired of playing a foolish game,
Tired of trying to make a name.
'Tomorrow' I say!
'I will call on Jim'
'Just to show that
I'm thinking of him.'
But tomorrow comes
and tomorrow goes,
And distance between
us grows and grows.
Around the corner!
yet miles away,
'Here's a telegram sir'
'Jim died today.'
And that's what we
get and deserve in the end.
Around the corner, a vanished friend."
Remember to always say what you mean.
If you love someone, tell them.
Don't be afraid to express yourself.
Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you.
Because when you decide that it is the right time it might be too late.
Seize the day. Never have regrets.
And most importantly,
stay close to your friends and family,
for they have helped make you
the person that you are today.

How many times in life have we pass by what we really wanted but did not notice that.Then we say , "aiya if only i knew".But truth is , there are lil times when "okay this time i know" , can be used.

See even dogs can be that expressive;
They are soooo cute.Haha

2008-07-01T03:39:00.001-07:00

Though about some things while i was in the bathroom.( Bathing ) & Realised that the happiest days of my life till now were those when I'm excited to go to school everyday ,chittychatters with my bunch of friends , gossiping about the guys we fancy , preparing talentime performance , laughing at the guy beside me cracking jokes about the 'transparent' lingerie he imports , train daidee & stress so that we can win the class beside in the daidee competition held in our secret classroom 3-9.Getting so worried about what if we lost , we have to do a forfeit nd if i didn't forget is to dance in front of the whole level.My results then were horrendous , i even dreamt that i scored 183 nd true enough , i really scored 183 , but that was for prelims.I can't remember if i was worried about my results then , but i guess so , but even though i still chat on msn everyday with the person i like while doing some weekly psle science & maths practise.( Grins )The feeling of able-ing to talk nd joke nd play with the liked one rulzes.Trust me.Haha nd woah talking about p6 stuffs all the rockz & rulez comes back again.

To any mbs'o4 graduates out there i luvvvvvvv your~! LOL. ROCKZ man!!!!

2008-07-01T02:25:00.000-07:00

When i fall apart from this treacherous world,maybe that's when the me you had never known comes out.

Moody moody day.Everything have seem to fall apart piece by piece after the holidays.I wonder what's left of me truthfully.Have i been avoiding a part of me too much,too long inside that when i want it back again,it's gone.What's the point of studying so hard when after we've graduated nd we go to another environment where we compete with each other so much just to grab as much money as we can.To sastify the needs of our loved ones,provide them with a comfortable nd condusive place so that they can live well nd do what we once did.One day ,my child might be posting what i'm posting right now.Why do we study so hard so that we do what most of us will not like to do in the future.Why do we have to try so hard to live up to what our parents expects of us.Why do we have to try so hard so just to make others fond of us.

We have round 7 to 8 weeks of time to prelims where we are supposed to be at least 75% prepared.I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me now still sidetracking./ Clearly i know the purpose of studying.But i don't see it.Someone please motivate me so that even if i have to be alone , i'll study.Less reliant used to be part of me,but god knows when have i become so depedant on people./But it seems like i've also gotten used to being disappointed with people nd myself.Numb to it.We dont find excuses for others nd so to be fair i wont find excuses for myself./I've never stopped practising give nd take.

"Fall with you i fell so fast.When i hit the bottom crash , your all i have."-

2008-06-10T03:44:00.000-07:00

Okayy here's a lot of pictures taken recently. :)

Yiting don't really like bread,but she ate it anyway cause it's NICE~!

~Luyen's B'day @ cartel! ~

Luyen loves butter cause she spammed it.Lol

LOL!

MY fish nd chips had attracted 2 hungry people.

:D

YO! Whatzup!!

Finally a new pose for monkey!

Waiting for someone's help ar.......

Okay this part is funny,on yi ting's fork is a huge piece of chicken skin with fats on it,she loves it,nd we are all used to her eating all these stuffs already but mun yee still feels very disgusted.So she looks at yiting nd say "YITING!YOU ARE NOT GOING TO EAT THAT."

"OKAY MUNYEE CAN YOU STOP LOOKING AT ME!?!"

OOO.!Yiting ate it!!!! LOL.Finally after like so many shots.

Good friends again.After skin is gone.

Straining her mind over Something.?

HELLO TING~

There's a change in pattern!If you can tell! Haha

Garangg Guni Cip @ tamp quite slack nd peaceful area except when some baddie let it's dog entertained us.

First, we start with this;

Then we ended with that! :D

@ some ci zha stall Grandad's b'day.

Innocent nd more innocent looks! Lol.

2008-06-05T04:06:00.001-07:00

I'm pissed by my Internet connection that is so darn corrupted by some shit, by the school which claims to be responsible nd concerned about my studies , by my father who pretends that he is okay with the calls nd results i gave.

What does the school wants huh.If your really wna let go,then just let go of everything, don't say alright we decided to give the responsibility of your studies to yourself,then on the other hand call nd hell complain to our parents.Say that your are concerned but do your have any sense of sensitivity that keep calling our parents does not make us,the UNDERACHIEVERS feel any bit better?Why can't your just get the pupil's number nd try contacting the student FIRST before the complaining starts? And the reason is parents will be so darn disappointed in us that they begin looking at us differently.We are no longer their normal kid cause we are now the problematic kid who just can't handle her study nd is giving them problems ;that is the phone calls from school.Parents obviously will always blame their own kid as if she's not putting in effort.FUCK ok.Don't make yourselves look so wei da when all you do is to make OUR PARENTS feel that way , that you people are responsible etc.

Now let me give your some suggestions,try calling us before contacting our parents,maybe then we won't feel so back stabbed by our own educators.Like we are sick at home then suddenly we receive a call from our parent saying that the school has called them nd asked why didn't we go for pump.Then the lecture of irresponsibility begins, com'on you want us to let you know we won't be going pump,then give us,STUDENTS the number BIG ND CLEAR so that we can contact to tell that we are not well nd didn't attend school and how is it possible that we skipped the earlier lessons nd head for pump ? I'm very sure if we do that,we will be considered as playing truancy ok.Why can't the school be more efficient like if the pupil didn't attend school then let Mr yap know so that he wont have to call our parents,so that he'll know the reason why we didn't attend pump.

Mr yap is a nice teacher, at least to me nd my friends we think that way,nd i know he is doing his job well nd i believe he is truly concerned about us,but he's not really a teacher from our school.And i believe that the school can be more responsible by just a bit to let him know which pupils did not attend school cause they were sicked nd hence did not attend pump,so that he won't feel that we skipped pump nd hang out elsewhere outside.

And to hell with my internet connections.

2008-05-18T01:40:00.000-07:00

When effort's put in but the results' not met,disappointment comes in.Probably i didn't study long enough shouldn't have aim only to pass cause pass's a must, but whatever it is.Gonna continue nd dont only aim for pass when others are aiming for As.

Anyway studies shouldn't be everything of a person's life ,leisure has to come in too! Went cycling followed by a swim( okay i can't really swim la so most of the time,i just watch or soak water.lol). And yesterday after tuition went macritchie's treetop walk with mum nd sis ma-de we had to walk 7.2 km la! Luckily we go nd ask the park ranger how long it will take for us to walk from the reservior to the treetop cause if we hadn't nd we followed the map,we will need a 3-4 hour walk there.And and the thing is if you can't say you wana give up in the middle of the journey cause it's a one way walk back nd forth lol.But anyway we walked a shorter distance about 3 hours back nd forth cause the ranger told us to stop our car some where else nd start walking.But from what i had remembered sec 2 when we went there,we didn't walk that longggg.Haha dont know why maybe we walked a shortcut huh.

Oh did i mentioned that my tuition ends at 1 nd we had to go pick my sister up nd lunch? And the treetop walk closes at 5.30 plus we have to attend the musical P.Ramlee at 8.Oh oh plus dinner nd going back home to bathe.So we were damn rush la quite wasted cause we walked very fast nd missed out a lot of sceneries nd insects there.But at least some monkeys nd squrriels appeared infront of us.Haha

Idotic turtle no. 1 who pushed nd climbed her way through the heavy toilet glass door.

Mummy's good today.I'll not study at the last minute now.I want to be lifted like what the book says!

"Hey girl,i haven't offended you in any form since like ages ago so can you please make no more comments about me behind my back? Well if you can't stop then do it infront of me eg. msn me la or urm sms me then we'll see whether what you say is true okay."

2008-05-08T08:03:00.000-07:00

Man, you don't need me to tell you,the exams are so fucking over,but the 'best part' yet's to come.The debrief sessions next week.3 papers a day,3 days to finish ALL the papers,3 days to drop a heart,from high probably,nd hopefully not,to low.

Whatever it is,it's not yet here so forget about the worrying.Caught iron man yesterday nd what happens in veags today,both are quite nice shows,can quite lyao in what happens,go catch it to relief some stress?Haha

Today's fun!Fun fun nd time passes quickly,left home at 10 plus went to meet monk went grandlink for an hours plus went orchard met na nd shing movie,then bugis dinner shopping laughing photoing nd home,now it's 1141. How fast =(

The building of some damn disgusting nd expensive candy from a well known brand.Enlarge to see it.I was damn bored alrights haha couldn't concentrate studying. =D

You know what?I love them too bad na went away early,we broke the ice much easier than i thought it'll be. Sleep over soon kay! haha hearts!

Mangroves is a soft engineering form of protecting the coastline (;

Oh im sitting on price casbian's chair! haha how fake,that thing's made of cardboard!!! HAHA!

The special mangrove growing independently!

2008-05-02T02:04:00.001-07:00

A new post shouldn't be something that's unhappy,but i thought today went on quite perfectly till i saw nd ponder upon somethings.Forget about a maths cause seriously i won't pass but i hope the upcoming papers gonna be alright?

So not in the mood to keep thinking about what i saw nd what had happened.But thinking about her denial make me feel even more urgh fucked up.I told monk that i aint gonna spam vulgarities anymore but gta make this an exception.

I so miss the late weekends with my mum nd sister,now that her exam's are over nd she finally moved back,i'm stucked in the exam period.what a timing.I got so many movies that i wna watch nd got so many restaurants i wna visit.I can't wait for next Wednesday to come.The first thing im gna do is to movie nd eat nd drag time with my 4 pretty ladies!Hopefully nobody need to go tuition nd etc wet blanket de stuffs. ;D

I'm gonna get a yellow skinny.Randomness but i swear fox had it but when we went parkway to see just now, they don't have it anymore =( Maybe it's sold out.!! What the hell.I hope it's not though,i don't wna get new future ones unless i need to,cause it's so loose,as in the more you wash it,the looser it gets nd instead of a skinny,it looks like a lapa ku.LOL.I can't wait for May 23 to come.HEH HEH xD

I got so many things i wna get,hope i have enough caaachings,cause i haven't been spending a lot since like CNY! Woo nd i got tix to Angela's concert already!3xcheers.

This is the 2person cannot finish Toblerone Cake.Haha cant finish it not cause it's not nice,but cause it's too hard.I miss the times in airport when we slack like nobody's business.

One of the best chocolate cake i've tried.-
THE BOOBOO!!!!!

In less than 5 mins

Hope someone's birthday coming soon then we can go out nd loud without having felt guilty (;

you dont know what it's like cause you keep changing your circle of friends,how true can a friendship like that be nd last?Maybe you say long,but hey,long for you cause you keep changing,but short for others cause they know they can't really count on you. Heyy babe the above's not for you,but this,is,if you know me well enough you'll know.Why didn't you just tell me the truth?This situation for the both of us now's rather weird.what's gna happen?idk maybe you can tell me.